Later on Ill be trekking it back to Bristol, a journey ive done thousands and thousands of times, all for an exam. Bit jokes. Its a journey I feel I need to take (Ill get beasted if I didnt sit my exam) not just for that reason but because I gotta see the Major. I feel a bit like Charlie Sheen at the momento, Im definately not bi-winning more likely to be a dick-head. Ive ruined arguably the most important thing in the world to me, dunno what was going through my head. Defo not proud. Cant get my head round why I have been so stupid.. pure idiot. Positives are that I have met some of the grandest mates ever in Bristol, brilliant lads. I do have a great fam aswell, which is ideal. I dont want people to feel sorry for me as I deserve all this, but I feel about as low as a snakes belly.
Need to change my image without doubt.
It would be rude not to Cant be assed with all that shite anymore.
Should I start revising?? Or not?? Quite a lot on my mind at the moment, leave it til tomorrow??…. Good shout
Trustworthy lads = TrueLADS
For all my haters :)
Bit late at night I know, but thought I needed to put down in words what is going through my mind at the minute, all is pretty shit to be honest. Normally I dont give a fuck but really things have gone too far, yeah I have done wrong in the past, almost makes up for the amount of times ive been done wrong myself whether that be ‘friends’ or exs it doesnt really matter, I just seem to be a target for bitching. I think its pathetic when gents of around 25 ish have to go behind my back slagging me off to whoever and whatever. Dunno their motivation for it really. Think its just very sad. Does it say more about their upbringing, probably abused or from a broken home I dont know. What I do know is they are scum, and to be honest its embarrassing for me that I could have called someone like that a friend. I am chatting shit at the moment but it was about time I had a good rant. Life has been particularly shit recently, some of it my own doing yes. Not all of it. I can take a certain amount of abuse but when silly girls dont know the real facts, thats when I start to think.. go fuck yourself.